Fighting Through It!

Yesterday morning I stepped on the scale. It was nice to see that the results were not as bad as thought they would be.

I had a loss of 2.8 pounds. Not as well as I was hoping, but a loss is a loss.

I really feel I dropped the ball this last month big time! I know for a fact that I could have made better choices when it came to my meals and I could have put in allot more time at the gym.

So were do I go from here. I am trying not to beat myself up to bad. Don't get me wrong I am really bummed, but I am not done! I just need to keep telling myself that I am not going to win every battle, but I will win this WAR!

There are times I ask myself "How do other people do it?" or "Why did I not do something about my weight sooner and am I to late?" I am find myself really struggling and hope I can get out of this rut I am in.

I need to pick myself up, refocus and get my shit together!

Weigh-in postponed and Disapointed!

I decided to postpone my weigh-in today until next week. Having a busy weekend with a soccer expo and V-day Sunday. It was a bit crazy and for some reason I felt overwhelmed.

Yesterday was a hectic day! We were off early as a family to a soccer expo. We spent a few hours there to see a variety of things and I got some ideas for practice. From there we went to a favorite of the families for lunch then we decided to take a drive to the Santa Monica Pier for a walk. It was a gorgeous day in So. Cal about 80 degrees but also a long one!

Today for V-day my wife made everyone breakfast and we all ate to much. We were going to do some yard work then off to an early dinner today but we got lazy and my wife's allergies kicked in. Later that day after a nap she got up and made a great spaghetti dinner for us and one of my son's friends. And once again we ate to much!

So I took a few steps back this weekend and I know it will hurt my progress and this was another reason for the postponement.

Tomorrow is a holiday (Presidents Day) and we will get the yard work done for sure. In addition to that I will get to the gym as guilt creeps in as I have not been since Friday and that will make it 3 days since my last work-out.

This month has been a real struggle for me big time! I feel I have not been as consistent as I have been in the previous months. I am disappointed with myself and need to look at setting small goals to get my confidence up. I really need to refocus and pull myself together before I really start to tail spin out of control.

I am just so frustrated right now!

Valentine Weigh-In

Sunday will be my next weigh-in. It will have been 5 weeks since my last one on Jan 11th. I am bit pessimistic as to what the outcome will be. I am hoping for at least a 3-4 pound loss I will just have to wait and see.

The past 5 weeks has been a bit of a roller coaster ride ride for me. Work has been hectic and it has been busy around the house with the kids. I have had a few bad days and I think this will cost me a pound or so. Last weight was at 293 so if I can break the 290 mark I will be ecstatic.

On another note this week has been good. Diet has been on par, I have gotten to the gym 3 days this week and will get at least another 1 or 2 in by Sunday. So at least I will have a strong finish this week.

I also have to tell myself again that the scale is not my only measuring tool! I also have my fat monitor so if there is a drop in my fat % and BMI then this will be a plus. In addition to those I always have my clothes. I am down to the last notch on my belt and I was able to fit into another pair of jeans that I have not worn in more than a year!

So until my next post I hope you all have a great few days!

What a Weekend!

Well, I don't know about everyone else but I though the game was Great! The Saints had a slow start and I thought that the Colts were going to find there groove, but when they were kept off the field for almost 3/4 of the 2nd quarter they need time after that to ramp up again.

Saturday night we had a great time at Monster Truck Jam and the best part it didn't rain. In addition it wasn't that cold either.

I had a chance to hit the gym Saturday morning and had a great workout. Overall this weekend with the Monster Truck event and the Super Bowl I feel I didn't over indulge and ate OK. Don't get me wrong I could have done better, but I feel I did fine.

Back on Track, Monster Trucks, The Super Bowl & Rain

It was nice to get back on track this week! I was able to get to the gym on Monday, Tuesday Wednesday and had some good workouts. Today being Friday I will be dropping in to do some cardio before I run my errands this afternoon.

My meal selections this week has been good. Eating a solid breakfast, fruit or nuts as a snack in between meals and Low-Cal dinners.

The only bummer for this week is that the Rain is back. It rolled in last night and will be here until Sunday morning. This really puts a damper on things because I am going to the Monster Truck show Saturday evening with the kids. It will suck if it rains on us at the stadium tomorrow evening. So I will be going out today and get some rain poncho's for us.

The Super Bowl is Sunday! Now I don't have a team that I follow, but it really doesn't matter as long as we have a great game. Not sure at this point were I will be watching it but I have a few options in the works.

So hope everyone has a great weekend and until next time...

Great to be back

So last night was my first visit to the gym since last Thursday. When I first got there I was a bit lazy and was not motivated at all, but after about 15 min on the treadmill I was good to go!It felt good to get back to the gym and get my heart pumping and the blood flowing.

My weeknights just got busy again as my daughter just started spring soccer and I will be assisting with the team. We will be practicing twice a week so I will need to schedule my workouts around this.

In just under 2 weeks it will be time to check my progress. I am a little worried that I may not be were I would like to be. I will cross that bridge when I come to it. Until then I will continue to work my behind off and just stay focused.

Recovery Week!

Well folks I kind of fell off the wagon a bit this weekend! and I haven't worked out since Thursday and boy do I feel lousy.

Friday my son had the day off from school so he asked me if we could hangout. So he has been bugging me to go to a Hot Dog Stand in LA called Pink's Famous Hot Dog's. So I decided that Friday would be a good time to do this. We had a great day, but I could have made better choices!

Saturday was a another day. I was enlisted to help a friend move so my brother picked me up and we had a quick coffee and donuts in the morning lunch was skipped so when dinner came around I binged. I caved big time, fell off the wagon took two steps back call it what you want I didn't do well..

I am trying not to beat myself up to much, but I need to get back on track this week with my eating and workouts.

I enjoy spending time with my brother, but when we get together I tend to really slack off big time. I need to take better control of my eating habits when I am with him. I tend to convince myself " it's ok you have been good for a few months now!" I can't do that! and I think that is what angers me the most about myself. It's like I have a little devil on one shoulder and angel on the other one and both screaming in my ear.

So this week my goal is to re-focus and get back on track.